Cita-cita atau cinta

Assalammualaikum gegirls and boboysss…

Macam biasa tajuk entry mesti nak gempak, mesti nak over macam orangnya kan. Haha. Sebenarnya nak cerita pasal cita-cita je and tak ada kena mengena dengan cinta monyet, beruk, dah sewaktu dengannya.

Well, since we were in kinder garden though. Teachers keep asking, “Dear gegirls and boboys, what is your ambition? Can you share with me?”

I still remember when I was in primary school. My teacher gave me a card. Then, she asked me to list down all my ambitions. If I’m not mistake, I have to list maximum 3 ambitions and guess what I wrote.

1. Doktor 2. Askar 3. Guru

Tak tahu kenapa Askar tu boleh ada. Haha. Maybe sebab selalu main game ”Police Entry” (I dont know how to spell it) tu yang nak jadi askar kot tapi kenapa tak polis? Hmmm, pelik. Setiap tahun cikgu akan bagi kad tu and isi column cita-cita dan setiap tahun juga cita-cita I pun berubah. Nak jadi pensyarah lah, polis lah. That’s the fact though. Kita still confuse dengan apa yang kita nak.

Then, when I started my secondary school I’m getting serious to think about my future. Masa form 1,2 and 3 tak fikir sangat sebab still not sure what is going to happen in the future. Then, bila result PMR keluar, I was admitted to Pure Science class.

Ibu selalu cakap yang dia nak I jadi accountant but the fact is I don’t even take any account subjects. I’m trying to follow what she said because I believe her instinct but I can’t. I gave so many excuses just to avoid her wants. I was struggling so hard when I was in form 4. I have to adapt with the subjects which are more details and complicated. Masa tu subjects yang rasa macam susah sangat ialah Kimia. Rasanya macam setiap exam fail kot. Kalau lulus pun setakat cukup-cukup makan.

Bila dah masuk form 5, I have to be serious. Dah tak boleh main-main lagi. Well, rasa macam best bila jadi senior. Best bila adik-adik comel panggil I kakak. Hahaha. Result exam pun getting better especially Biology and Chemistry. Physics and Add Math I don’t why I feel so hard to digest them in my mind. Lagi-lagi Physics. Makin nak exam makin confuse dengan formula and concepts. Add Math tu last minute baru nak pergi tuisyen. Nasib lah dapat back up topics yang lemah.

Satu hari tu, cikgu kaunseling ada cakap pasal Motivasi untuk kerjaya kat SEGi College. Memandangkan program tu free, so I dengan classmates pun pergilah program tu. Motivator kitaorang masa tu Encik Azam dengan lagi sorang. I lupa nama dia siapa. Sesi pertama kitaorang dengan Encik Azam. Encik tu tanya sorang sorang apa kitaorang punya aim and cita-cita. What we want for our SPM; straight A’s or whatever A’s.

Encik Azam

When it came to my turn, dah jadi cuak. Hahaha. Tiba-tiba Encik Azam tu cakap, “Okay, next. Nampaknya macam nak jadi guru awak ni.” I tak ingat ayat dia macam mana tapi lebih kurang lah. Masa tu rasa nak tergelak. Hehe. Bukan gelak pasal guru tu tapi tak sangka orang akan cakap macam tu.

Here, I learnt something. People can judge you, give an assumption by looking at the way you wear and talk. Nak tutup mulut manusia dari cakap pasal diri memang tak boleh lah tak kira benda itu baik ke tak. Lepastu, dia tanya soalan yang sama macam I cakap tadi.

”Saya ada 2 cita-cita. First saya nak jadi doctor pakar bedah paru-paru and businesswoman. Sebab nak jadi doctor pakar bedah ialah saya tengok ayah saya, pakcik saya semua hisap rokok. Saya jadi takut. “

Le classmates yang super busybody tu tetiba “pewit”. Hahaha. If you got what I mean? I don’t have to explain here okay? Itu semua gurau. 

“Second, saya pilih business sebab parents saya ada business sendiri. Manalah tahu, suatu hari nanti saya boleh tolong diaorang majukan business diaorang.”

Then, Encik Azam asked for my birthday date. Well, he started did something about that date. Apa yang dia kira or conclude pasal date tu pun I tak tahu. Habis “baca” date tu dia cakap “Better awak ambil business.”  And I just nodded and okay.

I took serious with what he said. Tapi sebulan lepastu fikir balik pasal benda tu, I macam tak nak ambil business and tetap nak doctor. Until one fine day, ada pameran pendidikan Australia kat hotel di Batu Pahat.  I pergi je lah dengan parents lepas habis sekolah. Excited gila bila tengok macam-macam universities and colleges kat Australia. Siapa yang tak nak belajar kat overseas kan? Semua nak including me.

Ibu sibuk interview satu satu Uni and kolej kat situ. Kerja I hanya ambil brochures and magazines. Hahaha. Datang sana untuk saja-saja tapi perasaan excited tetap ada. Sampai rumah, terus mandi buat routines budak sekolah macam biasa. Malamnya, belek magazines one of the universities kat sana.

Tiba-tiba…ternampak satu course yang sangat interesting. Psychology and nutrition. Apa lagi, terus cakap dengan ibu yang mana satu lebih baik. Well, psychology is more to human and their attitude while nutrition is about food and the effect. I think so. Hahaha. Suka sangat buat conclusion sendiri.

I already checked in UPU whether the course is available and yes there are a few universities offer the course in the name of dietetic instead of nutrition.  Lebih kurang sama lah tu. So, instinct makin kuat nak jadi nutritionist. :D 

Bila fikir balik, penyakit yang datang pada manusia semuanya disebabkan cara pemakanan dan gaya hidup manusia itu sendiri. My bestfriend used to ask me, “Asal nak jadi tu?” I pun apa lagi cakap lah, “Aku kan suka makanan.” Hahaha. Rasanya ada kena mengena ke ? Hmmm...

I dah ada study planning sendiri tapi sekarang tunggu result nak beranak je. Lepastu dah boleh melancarkan bom. I have to believe and be positive. Kalau nak fikir pasal cakap-cakap orang memang tak lah kita nak maju. Pekakkan telinga butakan mata.

Thank you Tumblr. 

Nice to see but its too hard to eat.

Enough for today. Thank you for reading. Byee...